In two days, there will be another birthday. It is a special one, thought it is a day I can no longer share with one of the few people in this living world that have meant so very much to me. Momma’s birthday anniversary still stings deep. Sadly, I fear it always will – but in the past, I did latch onto the fragile hope I might at last be able to re-connect with someone else who was important to her. In my sincerity and dutiful actions, I prayed I was doing everything in my power to abide by my momma’s last request: to see to her husband’s well being. In the recent past three years I have tried – and I kept on fighting (a losing battle) – until the very end, when it all became a bittersweet failure.
And, despite how deeply hurt I felt (and still feel so today), that it was all so bitterly one sided; in my heart, I wanted to always believe that there would come a day when the phone might ring, or there might be a knock upon my door, and that at last, he might be finally willing to try. All I have ever wanted was for him to try to put aside his own pain – just for a single moment – and to open his eyes to someone else’s grief. Along the way, I began wondering if it were asking too much for someone else to be less selfish. And, as much as I desired to be selfish as her daughter – I was willing to try and put aside my own pain, and felt devastated that he couldn’t.
I learned the truth on the third anniversary of her death.
It came from a third party, because he was “too afraid” to tell me. After a long silence and much hesitation, my dearest friend Tarina informed me momma’s husband Ed could no longer bear to see me, because I: “looked too much like Sue.” Immediately, it felt like the piercing of a thousand knives. No one might ever know the truest agony of gazing into a mirror and facing your mother’s own reflection. I see her in the shapes of my hands, in combing curls that were hers, crying tears from pale hues of hazel that are so eerily familiar. The shadows loom in re-creating art she loved – in singing lyrics to the songs she treasured – carrying the essence of strength that was so important. Every single day, I bravely faced the mirror – and everyday – I faced the painful, looming shadows, but I accepted it. This was God’s most precious gift to me – from angel Momma Sue. I prayed to honor her sacred memory in knowing that I truly was her daughter, in all of these precious things.
For those not as acquainted with me, my journal is a wonderful place to find some tidbits about what is going on in the Literature world. However, that being said, you will want to keep an eye out also for various other news postings from your Literature Community Volunteers, add them to your watch, so you will not miss out on a thing! Scrolling down, you will also find information geared towards other contests, groups and other news various links all related to Literature, so be sure to check them out.
Along with my monthly Ladies of Lit series, I host and support a variety of contests, group projects, a tri-monthly 30 Writers to Discover series, and the ongoing Writers Welcome Wagon. Is there something you wish for me to take part in or to help support? Feel free to note me at any time. Here is the current listing for my Ladies of Lit. Review the guidelines, and send me your suggestions, I am in dire need of them!
Ladies of Lit Issue: Volume Forty. Take part in our Ladies of Lit Mini Contest! The deadline is April 20th.
Latest Volume of 30 Writers You Should Discover. Writers Welcome Wagon Project. Looking for an opportunity to feature a writer you love? Now, here is your chance! Note your selection before April. There are only thirty slots open, so choose wisely! WorldWar-Tori wants you to take part in her Positivity Project. neurotype-on-discord is hosting a Speculative Fiction Contest. Your deadline is March 29th. doughboycafe is hosting a Historical Flash Fiction Contest. Your deadline is March 31st. LiliWrites is hosting her annual Human Trafficking Awareness Contest. Your deadline is March 31st. Gingersanps wants to see a Two Sentence Horror Story. The deadline is April 7th.Within the community, there are several Literature chatrooms to visit that might be of interest to you. However, if you feel uncomfortable in these chatrooms, you might find what you are looking for in the revamped Literature Forums. There are also several critique and prompt groups available for use towards all of your Literature-related needs. Below, you will find just a small sampling of what the community has to offer you:
#CRLiterature The official DeviantART Literature chatroom. #Writersforlife Write, mingle, learn and keep writing for life. #Writeroom Looking for tips, ideas and more, the Writeroomies are here for you. #Cabal Srs bsns of literary discussion. Writers-Workshop Where the Writers Workshop Writing. ScreamPrompts Are You A Writer? HammeredPoetry Sick of cliches? Us Too. transliterations From One World to Another. LITplease A Club for Every Writer.Throughout DeviantART, there are a number of resourceful news articles filled with features, contests and much, much more. Several deviants keep the literature community in the know with these articles. I am honored to present the creme of the crop, and invite you to fully explore what each article has to offer.
The Lit Gallery Volunteers' February Lit Daily Deviations. and CR Journal Updates. HugQueen loves DA Lit! Contests, Various Groups, Workshops and More. SadisticIceCream has Publishing Resources. apocathary also has a collection of Miscellaneous Resources. julietcaesar does as well in Her Journal. chromeantennae Likes to adjust his Lit Antennaes. rlkirkland Encourages Inspirational Affirmation. PoetryOD Simply Loves Lit Deviants. CelestialMemories finds Stories and Charming Chapters. inknalcohol is looking for some Group Therapy and Undiscovered Deviants in Lit. Aerode finds writers under the radar on his Watch. neurotype-on-discord goes in search of Wonderful Lit Deviants. autumnlit delves into Devious Poetic Libraries. mirz333 helps us follow a Literary Compass. DorianHarper picks out amazing Monthly Daily Lit and discovers dAuthors. MotleyDreams has some Literature Articles You Should Know. LiliWrites' got an eye for those who are Demonstrably Deviant. betwixtthepages calls for Literary Conversation.With the official groups feature in full swing, there is a whole array of Literature groups to join and support. Below, you will have the opportunity to check out just a few of the newest ones on DeviantART. And, if there is a group not listed here that may interest you, you might want to check out the official Literature Group Hub.
Worlds-in-Words, Series-Unknown, Story-Writers, Writing-With-Love, FightToWrite, I-LIKE-SHORTS, Expressive-Poetry, LiteraryMovement, Original-Lit, PoetryWithAVoice, Second-Draft, Blackout-Poetry, Learn2Crit-Lit, Lit-Addicts, writingmadefun, UndergroundAuthors, NGCreativeWriting, QuickReadsCollective, Souls-Within-Life, Writers-to-improve, Always-Poetry, Criticarium, PolishedInk, Literature-Creed, Edgar-Allen-Poets, PocketStories, Winters-Poets, Everlastingwriting, Literature-Critique, Poets-Haven, Writing-is-Visual, Try-Your-Page, UndefinedPoets, ForeverArtistOfWords, BoundByChainsOfWords, Write-to-inspire, UnitedLiterature, ExpressiveWriters, PoetrynProseWatchers, LyricsPoems, TheWritingShelter.
GlitchLit, Writers-Crutch, The-Writing-School, TheKnow.--Any other Literature news that you would like to see in this reserved space? Note me.
Thumbs: Shadows of Memories
LilacsStage four lung cancer, they said. Six months, at best. You held on for so long, chemotherapy jovially turning you from a white haired lady in to a wig topped moppet. Vitamin C treatments, pills, sleep. Doctors, hospitals, tears and upset stomachs. To make you feel better, we announced that I was pregnant with your eleventh grandchild, and we hoped to God in Heaven that you would meet her. And you did. You clutched her to you with the fierce passion of somebody who has created a life inside of them and spooned her cake on her first birthday...and a month later you faded away.
When the call came, I was sitting on my living room floor. It was my birthday, quietly I turned another year older while you hummed along on machines in a hospital room, far from me. Far from anywhere I needed you to be, and the last place I wanted. It was just before midnight, everything was peaceful, I was content. Contemplative.
We had been in to see you earlier, I stopped by, chatted for just a while. You coul28. Sorrowsubmerged;
drowning.
in over my head.
surrounded,
unable to escape
the captivity
of my own soul.
loss;
bereavement
holds me hostage.
time steals
from me
the things that
i cherish.
the things that
i love.
visceral
melancholy.
life is a paradox.
striving for
happiness,
we land in
despair.
sorrow,
and anguish,
and life
everlasting.
will i live
long enough
to see
my way though?
If you stop by, and would like to begin your journey on my DA homepage, may I suggest starting here. Also, if you are new to DA and need further assistance, please feel free to contact me if you cannot find what you are looking for in the FAQ section found here. My official DeviantART Prayer Support Log. If there is someone you know who is in need of support, do let me know at any time and I will add them to the log. I like to support Literature here by adding literature clubs/groups to my watch. If I have yet to add yours, feel free to leave me a comment. Who is serving the Literature Community and what can they do for you? Your Community Volunteers for Literature are listed below as follows. You can freely contact them at any time with your questions or concerns.inknalcohol
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Please stop by The-Novelist-Club and feel free to join us, whether you are a writer, a poet, reader, or even a critic - we'd love to have you. We are currently accepting regular submissions and various pieces for our Workshops, so please show your support to these wonderful writers and stop by. Looking to join a fun group which supports the exciting era of Abraham Lincoln by paying homage to his memory with fun panel discussions, Q and A sessions, book reviews and much, much more? Then TheLincolnLegacy is the perfect place for you. Walks of all artistic life are warmly welcomed here. LungCancer-Awareness was created to bring awareness to a well-known cancer that has not only impacted the daily lives of the members of my own family - but so many others around us. Anything that you can do to promote awareness within your community can and will make a difference! Wanting to keep an eye on all things Literature on DeviantART, and not sure where to turn? Your official Literature home CRLiterature, is the place to find everything you could possibly want, from generalized information, resources, contests and more, so do not miss out. Looking for some of the latest news about your Daily Deviations or that news article you may missed over the course of the month? Well then, LitResources may be the very place for you to catch up on all of the latest happenings. Everyone is welcome over at our group, And we realize that every writer has their own personality, interests, strengths and weaknesses, so we aim to provide unique pathways into the community for everyone. So go on - sign yourself up and get exposed over at Expose-Lit. Our judges at TalentedWritersGuild are looking for your quality literature! So, if you have something that you feel will simultaneously move us, challenge us, and inspire us as readers - then we are the very group for you. Looking for a delightful and positively charged environment to post your work and give others some encouragement and support? Then look no further than ProjectPositivity. I have added several updates to our local club Indiana-Deviants, so if you are from Indiana, or just interested in Hoosier related news, please, by all means, join us! We would be more than happy to have you there. We are always looking to accept new submissions.
Kimberly’s beautifully woven “dreamy” poetry reflects from her heart and through her gorgeous deviant identity, amongst the community. Her writing is sensitive and thoughtful, and she has a creative ability to pull her readers into a world with vibrant imagery – she helps us count the stars, travel through the valley of the butterflies, and discover our euphoria.
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